Today’s Mood : Average, Normal
Mario. Is an adorable kid game that came out in the 1980s. Will Mario Party 8 be the next great game for the Wii?
Below is taken from Britney Spears’ website.
Dear Fans,
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.
It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.”
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her.
Love, Britney
Quote of the month…
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.
“I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America” Britney, are you crazy or what? You are going to make mistakes everyday? You are weird.
Today’s horoscope says,
Extended Version:
Your recent fascination with material goods is getting stronger, but it’s not going to hinder your financial growth – despite the fact that your tastes are becoming more expensive. The surprising generosity of someone you know will enable you to enjoy having more without spending more. Show this person the right amount of gratitude, and she or he will keep being generous. It’s not always easy to receive gifts graciously, but your charm will help you figure out how.
For Singles:
Matters of the heart may be emotionally powerful now. It’s not the most comfortable sensation, but it’s very likely necessary for personal growth – and for taking the next steps along your love path.
*Hmmm* My fascination with material goods is getting stronger? Well, I don’t think so. Cos I don’t have a single material goods in shoes, clothes or anything. The only item that is branded is my laptop. *Laughs* Cos it cost me two thousands over bucks to get it. And it is my favourite “toy”. 
By looking at the above photo. You can easily tell that is motorcycle is parked on the pavement. What I encountered today, the motorcyclist is riding on the pavement (I was on my way back to office after lunch). This is against the rules. Pavement is for what usage? Is for people who walk. What the motorist doing today, is quite dangerous. What if accident happens? Then he realised that it is wrong? By then, it is too late for regrets or feeling guilty.
What I hate about Wednesday? I hate it when it is eleven in the morning to three in the afternoon. Why? Cos the computer will be lagging thru-out. Due to scanning of virus. Can’t the timing be change to be on Saturday? When it is not on a busy period? It’s kind of irritating.
I have so many magazines in the office. I think I can sell it second-hand! Anyone interested? Lelong! Lelong! 8 days @ $0.50, Cleo @ $2.20, Style @ $3.00, Seventeen @ $1.50. More magazines at home. But those are not for sale. Will throw some of them if I got the time to look thru it all. *Laughs*
Tomorrow is Thursday!! Finally!!! *Hurray* Emerge! Here I come. Sis Jaz manage to get the wrist bands. *Smiling ear to ear*
While on my way to the Coffee Club Express @ Clarke Quay, to celebrate Yehui’s birthday, I was planning to just get a drink as I went quite late. Suppose to meet at seven. As I need to find a job file that was ‘lost’. When I found I it, it was at the original owner’s desk. It’s okay. Cos she only know Ms K and Ms S. And TC had emailed the first quotation to Ms J. Whereas Ms J is no longer with the company.
Hurt my right ankle again. At the same place. *Darn* This time, the pain goes all the way up slightly above my knees!
Thought of just taking the NEL line home. Decided not to. Better bank in the money first as the auto banking machine closed at eleven. Furthermore, I’m not able to bank in tomorrow.
*Hmmm* Withdraw $30.00. Before dinner. Bank-in $200.00. I increased money by withdrawing. No la. I paid the food with my ‘credit card’. They paying the money back to me.
