Spoilers

Number of crushes that I had? *Hmmm* Let me see. I think about 5 or 6. Let me list them out in stages of my life.

Kidnergarden – 0 (Too young to know what is love)
Primary school – 0 (None. All bullies)
Secondary school – 1 (a Ah Beng)
After secondary school – 0 (as no good guys to look at. *Laughs*)
Working – 2 (one of them nickname is Michael W. Smith)
In church – 3 (first one, looks like Won Bin (100% look-alike), some of you who know this guy may know his name already, second one, he is very tall, he likes to write sports news report, quite talented, last one is my current guy that I had a crush on)

*Gee* After list them out, I got six crushes. *Laughs* Ooo, by the way, there is a lot of handsome guys I met in church, like James, who is a teacher. I never had a crush on him. Cos he is too good (that I’m not compatible to him). He has a lot of good qualities that lots girls would die for. He is tall, handsome, intelligent, and many more to name.

*Jeez* Honestly, Xiaxue is talking about the last book of Harry Potter. Some spoilers reveals the ending. Well, I don’t read them anyway. I mean the spoilers. And had not came across any of them. Maybe that because I didn’t buy any single book of it as it is quite expensive for a book. I’m talking SGD 48.59. The most expensive book I ever bought is SGD 30.00. Excluding Bibles. Now, back to the topic. Should I buy the last book or I just borrow from my brother, Max? He bought it on the day it launched. Today, he just finished reading it! That’s fast. The thickness of the book is about 6 to 7cm. Four days to finish it! Since it is the last book of the series, I don’t mind getting hold of the book. But will wait till it gets cheaper.

Is there such a phone that when the person is not at his/her desk, he/she press a button to indicate that he/she is not in? So that the receptionist will know how to divert the calls. Easier this way, right?

I really hates phone rings. I mean the office phones. They always tends not to pick up the call at the third rings as instructed. When they are not at their desk, and there are somewhere in the room and they can hear their phone ringing, they don’t trace the call and pick it up! And the call ends up beep back to the receptionist and it is irritating! And the receptionist is busy with her outgoing mails and etc. if only have the above mention type of phone do exist, please bring it in.

Just created a chatbox for everyone to use it as a tagboard. As WordPress doesn’t allow flash. Click here to chat. This link is put on my Chatbox widget.

Wanted to go the library during lunch time, end up didn’t go as not enough time. (-_-”) Going to return it tonight, I guess.

I really love this skin. Got everything that I wanted. How many times do I have to say this again, eh. *Laughs* I can edit my widgets (my side bars), able to put my blog name, tagline on my header. Able to change my header banner and colour of the text. How come long time ago I didn’t discover this skin? It is a bit similar to WishBoNe’s skin.

My second popular post that keeps popping up is 梁山伯和祝英台. Which is good. *Hee hee*

Click here to change my Daemon. I’m unable to put flash here therefore, I put link.

Looking For Finances

Dominique called to introduce me to Ning, you can have your forum, blog. Went to sign it up and try it out. If it is good, I may transfer to there or I may not. Maybe it will be my private blog. See how it goes. The whole place is pretty new to me.

Trying out Helium, too. I think Helium is slightly better than PPP (Pay Per Post). I mean you can freely write what you want to write. As in you do not need to advertise on the product given. At first I thought you can freely advertise what you think that it is worth advertised for (like what product you are using, and you think that it is good to introduce it to everyone). Turn out, it is not as it stated (I mean to PPP). I’m still exploring Helium. It is a place where you write out your point of view. Oh, by the way, writing in Helium, you need to do research before posting it out. Maybe I will write there once every fortnight. To tell you the truth, I’m finding ways to earn money. Still finding the website that you pay per view.

Long-distance relationships? It depends on how you look at it. Depend on how independent the person (or both) is. Sometimes if both of them are too independent, it may be a bad thing, too. I haven’t had a long distance relationship yet. Relationship and marriage is a commitment.

If counted all the post that is not posted online, today will be post 4185th (estimated). *Laughs*

All of the sudden, everybody is talking about sports. I mean last Friday received an email from my HR department saying that today there will be a sports day after work. When I reached home, Terence sms me saying that this Sunday, after service, we will be playing basketball. *Erm* Did I read it correctly? I don’t know how to play, I don’t know how to strike. *Laughs* I don’t think I will join them.

Money Doll House

*Hmmm* Have you thought of being a long-term travellers? I wish I have the money to do it.

Kelly Clarkson often sings about relationships, yet she’s never told a man, “I love you.”. Me, I often seeking for relationships, yet I never told a man, “I love you.” Even if I do, it turn out I spoke to the wrong guy. *Duh*

Went to the library to borrow more books during lunch time. Sometimes, I wonder, how do people visit their friends during lunch time? I don’t even have the time. I mean they don’t own car. How does they manage their time? Amazing.

I’m searching for “beach girl writing” images in Yahoo Images and I found this Heiniken Water Cooler. Kind of weird, don’t you think? Weird to find this under “beach”, “girl”, “writing” tag. But kind of cool about the idea of having a Heiniken Water Cooler

Myrle Krantz is amazing. She used money to make doll furniture! And this, too! *Woo* I just love the way she use them to make the curtains. The dolls! The couple’s bed! The heart. This is too cute. The toilet is sweet, too. *Laughs* Amazed by it.

Sacrifice one of my moveable drawer to the new accounts girl. And I have to squeeze everything into the other drawer that I’m using. Tough, man. Those can’t be squeeze, will be my utensils, like cups, water bottle, bowls. My table is like a kitchen, huh. *Laughs* Kind of helping me to make my table a bit more space.

Anyone remember this photo at Sentosa? I don’t really remember it. I think that this photo is taken in year 2002. As the author did not state the year.

Emergency 24 Hours

Sis brought home a male guinea pig last night. Three weeks old. Asked whether she discussed with mum about bringing pets home. She didn’t. Cos we both know that she will definitely say, “No”. Cos the other time I bought two hamster home, she was not happy. Actually she love pets. Only she doesn’t like her house to smells. I only wash the cage once a month. By right should wash it every week.

Was MSN with Ynot. He forgot where we know each other. *Laughs* We met in HabboHotel SG, in room Singapore20+. Cougar’s room. He likes Maltese. They are adorable dogs. Not huge and not small. The dog that I like is a bit similar to Husky. Still finding the correct name.

My dream of how my future boyfriend to propose to me for marriage, is buy my favourite dog and tied the engagement ring on its neck. My dream wedding theme is prom night. Cos Singapore rarely have prom night.

Went straight home after service as not feeling well. Watched Emergency 24 Hours – Part 3, which I rented. It’s a Japanese drama. Went to have a rest at seven. Didn’t wake up til sis switched on the lights at eleven. At first, I thought it was five-thirty. My watch is put upside down. *Laughs*

Standards

Internet server is down. Can’t complete my work at all. I need it to search for information. Since it is down, no point in staying longer doing nothing. Bring home the insurance website portal address. Will be declaring the insurance at home tomorrow. Left my thumb-drive in the office. Didn’t bother to go back and take as nothing confidential in it.

Went for cell group meeting. Went to return 想飞 VCD before taking the train to cell group meeting.

Was feeling quite tense up before cell group. Maybe due to the internet server is down and I finish my work. I felt better, more peaceful during worship. I was thinking about the guy. Should I give up, or I lower my stardards of what I want in a man? At that moment, I heard God said, “Why should you lower your standards? I have a better man for you.” *Wow* This is the first time I heard from God. I mean normally, I can feel his presence, or thru songs or even thru pictures that He shown me.

Went home with Dominique and Chris S. Were climbing down the stairs, I slipped. Sprained my right ankle. Well, not really sprain. But slightly pain. Have slight difficulty in climbing up and down the stairs and slow jog. Other wise is okay, I guess. Went for a late supper at McDonald. Went home at one.

After wash up, I almost twisted my leg again. *Ouch* I can’t afford to injured my leg again. Strange thing is that I slipped on my left leg. And I hurt my right leg. Heal my ankle, Lord. Thank you in advance for healing, Lord.

Wrong Attraction

Why am I attracting to the uncles? The other time (six years ago), a forty-year-old uncle likes me. I don’t even know he likes me. I ask him how come he don’t want to look for girls around his age? *Laughs* You see, I was young and innocent at that time, I was just eighteen years old. How am I to know what he think. The next, happened recently. Two uncles wants to get to know me. Do I look like an Uncle 杀手? Better not. I want to be a 英俊男子杀手. Pardon me, as I don’t know how to write the other name of handsome. *Laughs*

Below is the lyrics for YCMA, by The Village People.

Young men, there’s no need to feel down
I said, young men, pick yourself off the ground
I said, young men, ’cause you’re in a new town
There’s no need to be unhappy

Young men, there’s a place you can go
I said, young men, when you’re short on your dough
You can stay there, and I’m sure you will find
Many ways to have a good time

It’s fun to stay at the YMCA

It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
They have everything for young men to enjoy
You can hang out with all the boys
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
You can get yourself clean, you can have a good meal
You can do whatever you feel

Young men, are you listening to me?
I said, young men, what do you wanna be?
I said, young men, you can make real your dreams
But you’ve got to know this one thing

No man does it all by himself
I said, young men, put your pride on the shelf
And just go there to the YMCA
I’m sure they can help you today

It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
They have everything for young men to enjoy
You can hang out with all the boys
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
You can get yourself clean, you can have a good meal
You can do whatever you feel

Young men, I was once in your shoes
I said, I was down and out with the blues
I felt no man cared if I were alive
I felt the whole world was so tight

That’s when someone came up to me
And said, “Young man, take a walk up the street
It’s a place there called the YMCA
They can start you back on your way”

It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
They have everything for young men to enjoy
You can hang out with all the boys
YMCA
It’s fun to stay at the YMCA
Young men, young men, there’s no need to feel down
Young men, young men, pick yourself off the ground

YMCA
And just go to the YMCA
Young men, young men, I was once in your shoes
Young men, young men, I was down with the blues
YMCA

Why am I mentioning YMCA? *Hmmm* Well, cos I want young man not old man to like me. Men that are around my age. Not older than me. Talking about this, come to think of it, my ex-boyfriends age are close to thirty years old when I dated them. Now they are thirty-three and thirty years old respectfully. Currently I’m looking for men between twenty-five to twenty-eight. I think the song doesn’t link to my topic. *(‘o’)*

Came upon this photo in Flirkr. I wonder how did she take this amazing photo. It deserves an award. Sometimes, I just wish I could simply stayed at home, doing my own things. Taking photos and do my writings.

Below is the lyrics for 黄昏晓, sang by 王心凌, from the soundtrack of 微笑Pasta.

(口白)有人说 天剛要黑的时候
在天邊出現的第一顆星星 它叫做黃昏曉
風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 吹在黃昏的空中
我飄呀飄 飄呀飄 飄不進你的心中
問一問風怎麼说 也不能解釋所有的痛
倒不如問一問我 要怎麼去過
風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 吹在微涼的夢中
我追呀追 追呀追 卻停在原地不動
風為什麼還不走 陪著我安靜等你劃過
我不再問為什麼 因為我懂了
擁抱的溫度 只有你清楚 通往幸福的旅途
黃昏才領悟 該往哪裡停駐 我用一輩子去追逐
～間奏～
風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 吹在微涼的夢中我追呀追 追呀追 卻停在原地不動
風為什麼還不走 陪著我安靜等你劃過
我不再問為什麼 因為我懂了
擁抱的溫度 只有你清楚 通往幸福的旅途
黃昏才領悟 該往哪裡停駐 我用一輩子去追逐
風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 風吹呀吹 吹呀吹
擁抱的溫度 只有你清楚 通往幸福的旅途
黃昏才領悟 該往哪裡停駐 我用一輩子去追逐
風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 風吹呀吹 吹呀吹 風吹呀吹 吹呀吹

Thought of doing something special for mum this Mothers’ Day. Can’t think of any ideas yet. Had given her flowers, cards. Cook for her is still yet to be done. And I’m a bad cook. *Laughs* I know how to cook Maggie mee, cabbage. Since now the fire starter is spoilt, I don’t know how to start the fire.

You are Always on My Mind

Went to Sentosa for sun tanning. Took quite a lot of photos. Had upload it to my Flickr account. Please do check it out.

*Wow* Amazing, I was walking home after meeting Rong Fang. A song came into my mind. And I kept singing the song with the melody that came into my mind til I reached home. God, You truly amazing. The words, “You are always on My mind” is not from my mind, but it’s like You are speaking to me and only. Thank you for Your encouragements. It is what I really need it. Was thinking of the entry I wrote (Entry is protected). And this song came into my mind. Should have bring pen and paper and write it down. And I could copy it all down. The lyrics goes like this. It is draft. Can’t remember all the lyrics as I kept finding the right words to fit in.

为了爱，你给了一切
Thank you for your presence
Here I am, bow on my knees
You said, “You are always on My mind”

Sparkle

Life is so hard at times. Felt like giving up. Life is so imperfect. How to please everyone? So hard. Guide me through all this please. That’s all I pray.

Today’s horoscope says,

Quickie:
After a lot of socializing, you should enjoy the chance to spend some time alone.

Overview:
Take a chance and you’ll soon see the far-reaching potential of this opportunity. A touch nervous about taking this leap is understandable, but the sense of achievement will put your doubts to rest.

In the other horoscope website says,

An aspect between your ruling planet Venus and Pluto means that you will be extraordinarily perceptive right now. If someone is trying to pull the wool over your eyes in relation to some kind of financial agreement, they will be wishing that they had been more honest!

The day spotlights your communicative abilities, travel, and neighbourhood interests. Your thinking is inspired now and you’ll express yourself with zeal and conviction. You have the inside track on how to impress others in some new business deal.

Try making some changes to your appearance and your attitude that will reinforce just that. Self-deception about relationships is a problem. Visit those less fortunate than your self; be sure to help them with their personal problems.

Need to make a decision concerning a relationship and you need to do so before mind planet Mercury changes signs tomorrow. If you let things drift any longer you will be out of luck in the love stakes and maybe out of pocket too, simply because you took so long to make up your mind. Be decisive.

You may be living in a dream world today but that’s OK. Love is on the rise and travel and doing things with the one you love are all good. So forget about your worries and enjoy the moment.

You may feel that you have been drifting through life recently, so this is a perfect time to reflect on the year’s achievements to date. Conflicts may arise if you feel the need to blame others rather than yourself for certain situations which have failed or not worked to your advantage. If you are honest and value your friendships, then concede defeat, if necessary, make apologies. Try to spend time with members of your family. You are likely to be in great demand socially over the next few days, so some people will start to feel neglected.

Yesterday, I manage to call Xiuzhen (Sun Fanclub manager) to let her know that I will be able to collect my purchase after work. And manage to find a time, to collect it tomorrow after or before church service. So watch out for this space on Labour Day entry. *Grins* I’m so excited.

I love balloons, flowers, gifts, chocolates, taking photos for people or for myself (rarely you will find me taking photos of myself) and so many things that I love.

I hates mushrooms, my shirts (blouse) to be black colours. I think I better buy green, yellow, orange, violet shirts or blouse. It is rarely found in my wardrobe. *Grins* I don’t have a single green or violet colour clothes.

What I love about Wretch, is that you can block the right click button whereas, WordPress is not able to. Too bad that Wretch can’t block screenshot. If can, best. My writings can’t be copied at all. *Evil Grins* Anyway, still exploring.

When a person is in love, you can see his or her eyes sparkles. This is what I notice in a girl who was talking to her boyfriend in the train months ago. *Hmmm* Maybe I will test it out on the guy that I like, see whether his eyes sparkles or not. *Muahaha* From there, I will be able to tell, whether he likes me or not. I’m so naughty.

Isn’t it Sweet?

Came upon Jon’s friend’s blog. Saw this words on her homepage. Find it meaningful, or should I say romantic.

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever, and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? And once again he replied no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face, the boy grabbed her arm and said, You’re not pretty, you’re beautiful. I don’t want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And I couldn’t cry if you walked away. I’d die.

Isn’t it sweet? If only someone could say this to me. In sincerity and true. This is like in fairy tale. And I don’t believe in fantasy or fairy tale. I take it as enjoyment.

Tried Coca Cola Zero. Quite nice. No sugar. The design of the can, look like a Japanese beer. *Laughs* I like it. As it is not the usual red colour.

Went for duty after work. Went for service for a while as there is no more seats. Went in for a while. Share cab home. And reached home same time as yesterday.

Gardens @ Changi

Okay, I’m having problems if I upload my photos here. Therefore, I will be uploading in my Flickr website. Apologise for the trouble. I will be posting some of my favourite photos and photos that is related to my entry for the day. This way, the layout of the blog won’t be affected. Still figuring out how to put my latest photos to be shown in my blog. Please give me some time. Thank you for your patient. If all else fails, I will put links. Hope I won’t go to there as it is quite troublesome.

Watched Poseidon and The Chronicles of Narnia – Prince Caspian that I bought the DVD months ago. Didn’t manage to find the time to watch it til now. *Laughs* Poseidon, this movie makes me kept asking the characters to hurry up, run and swim fast. It is about survival in the time of shipped wrack. A bit similar to Titanic but different. Titanic is a love story. Poseidon is about a father’s sacrifice to save others. As for The Chronicles of Narnia – Prince Caspian, it is the continuation of The Chronicles of Narnia – The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe.

AY said she has a friend who will fetch her home after work. Well, for me, there is none. No one even ask me out nor fetch me home. Just for casual meet up is practically none. I’m waiting for a guy who will bring me hope about falling in love again.

To the Guy

When will you notice me?
When will you call me on other things besides the normal stuffs?
Do you dream of me?
Do you have feelings for me?

What I want in a man is very simple. Only it is hard to find. Same question still comes back, I know you are single. When someone likes you come along, will I have a chance? It’s hard for me to think that I have a chance.

Manage to take photos of the stage. And the walls can be move around. In the middle of the stage, it can move up and down. Really amazing. There is two more service tomorrow. At 10am and 1.30pm.

After service, we went to Changi Airport’s staff canteen for dinner. While going back to the MRT, saw sunflowers. My favourite flowers is sunflowers. They are so beautiful.